Friday, May 21, 2010

A (late) Nurses' Week post

An old man walking along the beach at sunrise came upon a young man sifting through the debris left by the night's tide. Every now and then, he would pick up a starfish and fling it back to the sea. The old man asked him the purpose of his efforts. "The tide has washed the starfish onto the beach. They will die unless I throw them back." The old man looked around at the miles of beach. "There are more starfish than you could ever save. Surely you cannot expect to make a difference." The young man bent to pick up another starfish. As he sent the starfish sailing back to the water, he said to the old man, "It made a difference for that one."


This week we had our New Grad Pinning Ceremony, basically to mark the fact that we've been nurses for almost a year. I can't believe its been almost a year! It seriously has flown by! Sometimes I still feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. In honor of the near-year mark, this is the list of things I've been able to check-off my Nursing Skills To-Do List:
  • foley insertion (on both a male and female)
  • NG tube insertion
  • administer certain chemo drugs
  • had a patient go crazy on me and therefore put him in 4-point restraints
  • accessed and de-accessed a Mediport
  • wound care (GROSS.)
  • changed multiple ostomy appliances: your standard one, double-barrel stoma, loop stoma, stomas with a bridge, etc
  • enema (not necessarily something I was all that excited about crossing off)
  • postmortem care (also something I wish I never had to do)
  • Continuous ambulatory peritoneal dialysis
  • coded a patient
Things left to do:
  • witness/deal with a seizure patient (i'm absolutely terrified of this)
  • suctioning / trach care (also WAY, WAY GROSS. ...but i gotta do it some time)

"Right now there is a nurse helping a woman become a Mom, a nurse holding the hand of a dying man, a nurse inserting an IV in a child, a nurse listening to an Alzheimer's patient tell a story, a nurse missing her family while caring for yours. In the minute it took you to read this, nurses all over the world are saving lives."

I love my job. :)

Thursday, May 6, 2010

quarter life crisis

Ok, so its not really a "crisis" but recently I've been re-evaluating things. For one, EVERYONE is engaged/married. Seriously? And the ones who do not fall in this category are in serious relationships that will probably be taking the next step soon. When I was younger I pictured myself married at 27 or 28 and then having my first child at 30. If that were still going to be the case, then I would have to start dating my future husband, oh... last month. That's not to say that I want to be married just yet, because I dont. I cant picture myself as a wife right now or think about possibly having kids in the near future. But I'd like to be a step closer than I am. Because I'm not close at all. Not even a little bit. And dont get me wrong, I love my life. I love my friends. I have a great time and enjoy single life, etc. But sometimes it just gets old, you know. (Plus boys are stupid and frustrating, but thats another story)

Second, so many of my friends are going back to school and furthering their degrees. I know I just graduated and I'm still a new nurse, but people keep asking me, "what's next?" "When are you going back to school?" I have no idea what's next. I know I'll eventually go back to school but I have no idea when or for what. I know I need to do it relatively soon because I'd really like to be done with school by the time I'm 30, but at this rate I dont think that's going to happen.

Finally, my friend is going to Haiti with her mom (they're both nurses) and doing volunteer work. I want to do that. I want to make a difference. I want to make something of my life.

Mreh. I just feel so unaccomplished right now and I feel kinda lost since I dont have all these big life plans like everyone else does.

Scrubs

I dont understand the fascination boys have with girls in scrubs. I get the whole sexy/slutty nurse fantasy, but we dont dress like that. EVER. And they know that. This one guy says to me, "I'd kinda like to see you in your scrubs one day." And he's not the first to say that to me. But dont people (read: boys) realize that the scrubs we actually wear are not sexy. In fact, I dont even want to begin to imagine the kind of grossness that covers my scrubs. Also, I've seen what I look like at the end of a 12 hour shift. It is not attractive. Hell, I am not attractive at the start of my 12 hour shift. I literally roll out of bed, throw my hair up, and throw on scrubs. I run around and deal with MRSA infected patients who have poop coming out of them. I'm not gonna bother to look pretty. But for one reason or another, boys think nurses are hot. Its a mystery to me.

And scrubs absolutely look better on guys. I dont find scrubs to be a "turn-on" but I must say, there are definitely some guys who make the plain green standard hospital scrubs look good. Siiigh. ;)